Wednesday, December 7, 2011

A Living Relationship

When others speak against me, I can be weighed down by the fear that they somehow define who I am (and this is especially true when I fear that "they" might even be partially right in what they say). But the mercy of Jesus defines who I am. I mean this in terms of a living relationship with Him, not just a flat affirmation.

The meaning of my life is to belong to Jesus. I have to live that as a relationship, it has to form my heart, so that my whole life is an interaction of love with Jesus, in which he uses even my failings and my character flaws and even the big pimple on the end of my nose (haha, I don't have one of those right now).

And a real relationship, a living relationship with Jesus, brings with it God's family, Mary, the saints, the Church, and my fellow imperfect believers whom I love because I see that they too are made for Him.

Pray. I must beg Jesus to draw me to Him. Beg Him to show me the way to walk with Him. Beg Him to make the relationship in the heart and not only "in the head" (as it so often can be with us Christians). Only by living with Him in the heart can we "love our enemies" rather than being oppressed by them or responding to their violence with violence of our own. If I pray to Him and trust in Him, He will change me. 

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Oh JJ, you are not alone! I cannot for a second imagine anyone speaking against you, first of all.

Second, I am going through something horrific myself, right along these lines. My name, my values, my parenting, and my entire life and that of my remaining children are being dragged through the mud...not just to my face, but to medical organizations, and very probably in courts of law soon. My daughter's grandmother (paternal) actually said that we were no longer a "real family" in her birthday card this week. Happy 15th birthday, sweetie...

Can you imagine your grandma doing that?

Loving my enemies isn't nearly as difficult as loving the people who hurt my kids.

We both need to beg Jesus to draw us and our children close to Him.

I need to remember to be like Jesus in the face of His response at all...just forgiveness...when I can manage it.

I'm telling you, JJ, I could have written your post about my own situation! Thank you!