|The Abbey chapel at Berryville|
This part of the Gospel is so rich; indeed it is quite overwhelming. It takes about twenty minutes at the very least to read the three chapters continuously with attention. I should know. For almost a decade my spiritual father was an old Cistercian monk at Holy Cross Abbey in Berryville, Virginia. Fr. Edward died last year, and I still have to devote a post to him (which I will do soon). Right now, I mention him because he always gave the same penance for confession: the prayerful reading of John 14-16.
This seems like a bit more of a time-and-effort investment than most "standard" confessional penances, but I am grateful for the frequent reading of this text, and what I feel inclined to call "learning to dwell with it." This is a profound exchange between Jesus and the disciples. As is so often the case, the disciples don't understand. Jesus uses these great images that are familiar to us, but the disciples are confused. Jesus speaks of Himself, His Father, the Spirit, the world, the disciples, and they are not quite sure what he means by all of it. When we read these texts, we are dazzled, but we sympathize with the disciples in a certain way.
Maybe we have studied the Bible for years, but do we really "get it"?
"We do not know what he is talking about" (16:18) the disciples are saying near the end of chapter 16. Two thousand years later, we can still appreciate their perplexity. We too may wonder, "What is He talking about?" We have the development of doctrine, and the tradition and the Fathers, and many good modern commentaries, and our own prayerful reading in the light of the Holy Spirit. It remains an awesome and beautiful mystery, and it brings us more and more to a simple gaze full of silence, adoration, and love. We are drawn to "abide" in Him, and allow Him to dwell in us, with the Father and the Spirit.
But just then comes a moment in the text when the clouds seem to open for the disciples. What happens in this contemplative dialogue that breaks through and appears, even if only for a moment, in their minds and hearts?
"I have said these things to you in figures of speech. The hour is coming when I will no longer speak to you in figures, but will tell you plainly of the Father. On that day you will ask in my name. I do not say to you that I will ask the Father on your behalf; for the Father himself loves you, because you have loved me and have believed that I came from God" (16:25-27).And then He says a single verse that sounds like something He has already said many times. Yet this time it stands out; it seems to touch the disciples for the first time in all its richness. If we ponder it for awhile, we might be touched by it too. Jesus says:
"I came from the Father and have come into the world; again, I am leaving the world and am going to the Father" (16:28).The hitherto bewildered disciples seem suddenly awakened by these words. Perhaps they don't know what they are saying, and yet they are impressed with a luminous certainty, as if they are standing before Jesus transfigured. They are greatly consoled and illuminated. Suddenly they rejoice, and cry out with a newly found joy.
"His disciples said, 'Yes, now you are speaking plainly, not in any figure of speech! Now we know that you know all things, and do not need to have anyone question you; by this we believe that you came from God'" (16:29-30).Perhaps we reach this point and wonder what we've missed. What did Jesus say that suddenly made it all clear?
I wonder if these words might indicate the very heart of the matter. The Son comes forth from the Father and, with the Father, breathes forth the Holy Spirit. And Jesus has come into the world above all to reveal and glorify the mystery of the Holy Trinity, the mystery of the God who is Eternal Love. "I came from the Father and have come into the world; again, I am leaving the world and am going to the Father."
Perhaps these words open the hearts of the disciples to Jesus's relation to the Father in the Spirit. Perhaps they grasp that His whole mission is to "open up" the life of God so that they may share that life through Him. Still, Jesus knows that His coming and going has not yet reached its definitive moment. The Cross remains before Him:
Jesus answered them, "Do you now believe? The hour is coming, indeed it has come, when you will be scattered, each one to his home, and you will leave me alone. Yet I am not alone because the Father is with me. I have said this to you, so that in me you may have peace. In the world you face persecution. But take courage; I have conquered the world!" (16:31-33)